I'm scared

I'm scared I'll never be happy, I'm scared I'll never do anything different. I'm scared that I will never pursue my dreams in music and I'm scared that I'll regret not doing it because I am scared. I know that I will probably fail, but the thought of never trying - that's enough to make me feel sad. I don't want to disappoint my parents but they don't take gambles on their lives yet I want to, it's my life my decision and I am so scared of living it how I want. Sometimes I wish I had no family to be able to feel free of the judgment of those whom I care most about.