It's so weird to write this out because I've never even told anyone else, but every time I see you do the little things you do I die inside because I know that all of that isn't mine and that I'll probably never hear you say my name or even talk to you at all and that kills me. Whenever your not around I feel like a part of me is missing too because it's with you and stubbornly, I don't know what to do. All I know is that I really, really want you, but at the same time I'm afraid to look at you. It's definitely not meant to be for us, and I guess I'll just wait until I never look at you the same way again.