You love me with all of your heart but your constantly shitty and controlling over me. i no longer have any friends any life and hardly any family because of you and i fucking hate it. it seems like when its just me and you and we are alone everything is perfect. but i cant say or do anything that i want. i cant hang out with friends unless i ask you first. I cant even leave my house without consulting you and then you guilt trip me and make me feel horrible about leaving. youve told me things like"well your going to go hang out with friend while i sit here all alone and do nothing" and it makes me feel like a horrible person. When i cheated on you you told me time and time again that i was a horrible person. The only reason i cheated is because i feel like you treat me horrible. it stresses me out to no end. because i feel suffocated and trapped. but i cant tell you that cause you'll either end up crying or pissed off. then im going to have to apologize and spend countless hours taking care of you. and some how you always turn the situation around on me and make me look like a bad person. i spend every waking moment trying to make sure your okay because you cry and you are upset every single day. now that you drive you come every day to my house which i am okay with. but i feel like your immature. it hasnt even been a month yet and your quiting your job, your car is broken you wont get it fixed. and you wont do any of your schoolwork or even think towards the future. sometimes i feel like its a waste of time trying. but you do treat me good and protect me. you look out for me and tell me im your world. but sometimes all i cant think is is it really worth it for just that. i love lying in your arms and being with you. but everything else sucks. what do i do
