I miss you so much, brother

I miss u so much, Ryan. Why did you have to start cutting, why did you have to get anxious about everything, because as a consequense, you're making me feel unbelievable pain, and my friends have no idea how much pain I'm going through because I'm doing my friggin best to hide it. Now your going to boarding school, and I almost can't control my self anymore. I can't go 30 minutes without thinking about you, but I haven't seen you for so long I'm beginning to forget what you look like. You're slipping away, Ryan. Why?