Why do i still love you Nina?

I cant understand why i still love you. After what you did to me. After almost getting me put in jail for 10 years. Why do i still love you? After i found out about all those guys you were fucking behind my back while we were together! I just dont know why. I still love you. But at the same time i hate you with my fucking guts. I dont understand anything anymore! Fuck it. Uhhhhh i cant stand this pain i feel. I want to say more but i cant!!!! Fuck. This is unbearable!!!